kisses are a better fate than wisdom.

ugh. I'm so excited. Maybe I have a girl crush.
Lady Gaga at Radio City. January 20




oh and I submitted my first grad school application to Eastman yesterday.

remember so, forgetting seem.

My chinchillas didn't make the trip home.
I'm not sure what happened. One minute they were fine. A half hour later, they were gone.
It's just too much. Bandit last week, James and Henry this week. I feel like I'm being punished for something.
It was horrible. I opened their cage, and they were just lying there, like they had been sleeping.
I couldn't believe it, I hyperventilated and screamed. Finally I just held them and cried.
Every couple minutes I remember that it wasn't an awful dream, and the sadness just fills me up again.
I know deep down that it's not my fault, but whenever the sadness hits I can't help but think I did something wrong.
I wish I could go back to yesterday morning. I walked into their room and sang to James. He just sat and watched me.
I miss them so much.

Spontaneous road trip to Erie. Melissa got an amazing waterlily tattoo on her hip. And then we both got amazing matching Harry Potter tattoos. Badass.

My puppy Bandit had to be put to sleep today. He was just over a year old. He had a tumor in his stomach and couldn't eat anything.

I can't wait to go home. But I know the second I get there I'll want to be back here.



This was shortly after it was done. Hence the redness.

Recital went fantastic. I can't believe it's over.
I'm glad it's just Zak and I again.

Time to focus all energy on applications.

I'm living this week "Zak style". Meaning, it's Monday night and I've already skipped a class. Most likely more to come.

I really want to see Where the Wild Things Are. Maybe Friday night?

I really don't want to grow up. It's slightly terrifying.